by Skylar Belt
I'm about to leave to go outside
but before I go I’m looking in the mirror,
checking to make sure my outfit looks good,
that my hair is in the just right spot.
My partner is there with me
watching me adjust my outfit,
and they tell me how cute I look.
It makes me smile. A lot.
I pass by a tall lanky boy with a buzzed head.
He looks at me up and down, in utter confusion,
I keep walking.
I pass by a short tan boy wearing bright green sneakers
"Woah!" he blurts out as he stares at me,
I smile awkwardly
and walk faster.
Then I pass by an acquaintance
she has soft brown hair and wears a white summer dress
I try and wave hello as we brush past each other
but she keeps her head down at her feet
and doesn't say a word.
I walk a little faster
until I pass by a friend of mine,
She begins to wave at me and then stops
her eyebrows curl over each other.
"What are you doing?"
And I shrug
as if I don’t know what she’s referencing
"Just heading to class," I say
and I give her a big toothy grin
as I walk just a little bit faster.
Then I make it to a crowded area on campus
and I can feel eyes darting towards me
some refusing to look away
others anxiously avoiding me--
I shove my chin out with confidence
but I can feel my tights all too well around my legs
as if they're choking me.
I breathlessly retreat around a corner
and I pass by a person with denim overalls and short green hair
they casually say to me,
"Hey, I really like your dress."
And I smile. A lot.
I feel like I'm about to cry
but I slow down a bit and just keep walking.